I'm going to take this time to recount some of the klutzy things I have done today...
At the MOSI museum something possessed me and I just had to buy dip n' dots, and they fell and melted over the bleachers in a Brilliant Rainbow display. I ran into at least 5 different people. I opened a bathroom door and it hit a little kid! I jumped off a riser and fell flat on my face in Grease practice. and then I almost whacked James in the balls. sorry "/
Hopefully, i will have used up my fair share of clumsiness by the time I start driving, or little pieces of Kaylee will litter the sidewalks.
enough said. I must go slave over my biology homework. Test tomorrow >.<
I really don't want our little quasi-friendship to end. It would honestly break my heart. I agree with the idea that we need somewhere to say exactly what's in our hearts but there is a point to where blatant words are plain nasty.
wow. you're so full of yourself it's funny. congrats.
Envirothon was awesome. (we didn't study :P) Except for the whole hotel running out of blankets thing. Really, who knew there was an end?
The envirothon people had us go on a scavenger hunt, which was pretty cool, because we got to wonder through the forest alone and play on the suspension bridge. (woohoo!) The lady running it thought we were lost because we took so long. "P Then we went on the swings and sang Phantom of the Opera :D
I've started running again :) It helps gets rid of all the extra tension of the day. Which i need. I haven't been able to fall asleep quite as well as I used to. ( but even as I'm writing this my eyes keep slipping.(It's almost 2AM) But even more than that, It makes me happy. Cool air biting at my face, music blaring, sprinting down our fence line. You mind gets lost in the now, instead of constantly twisting thoughts. It's like a break from the world that reminds you of what you've been missing. You almost don't want to stop.
I'm going to bed now before I fall out of my chair.
PS: MONA I made the FUNNEL CAKES! but they look like snakes d:
We just got home from my cousins wedding and I'm eating a bowl of Special K w/ WHOLE MILK <---YAY FOR FATFULLNESS! The wedding was amazing. It was at the groom's (Daniel) Aunt's beach side chateau on Sanibell Island. The actual ceremony was in the courtyard and right in the middle there was this really cool Banyon tree that lit up at night. The Bridesmaids were in dark blue and sort of corral colored flowers (The roses were crazy!) and my cousin Lauren (the bride) wore this very simple elegance type sand colored dress and the groom and his men had pinstripe pants that matched her dress with white linen shirts and flip flops. The pastor was this burly guy (Seriously. His shoulders were out to HERE. ) and he was dressed in linens and flip flops also. And one of the groommen sang " When I Said I Do". It was all very cute which// is why I'm going into such great depth :P
The reception was nice, But I'm not very skilled in the art of mingling with a room of successful 20 & 30-somethings whilst popping shrimp balls in my mouth, so I went and took pictures on the beach and made friends with all the culinary people. Which was fine by me :)
My Aunt Marguerite is a really cool person. When I was little I used to think she was semi-scary with her lavish amounts of eye shadow, but she's not at all. She took Tanner and Brent out on the beach and helped then pick out the best shells and last year when we went to my grandma's for Christmas and everyone got sick she took care of me and made me tea. :) AND She's a nature freak like me! I just wish she didn't live all the way in Charleston.
Just thinking..My grandma once told me that God wouldn't put a love for something in us and wouldn't make us need for something if we wouldn't one day get it. I wonder if that's true.
"The whole purpose of places like Starbucks is for people with no decision-making ability whatsoever to make six decisions just to buy one cup of coffee. Short, tall, light, dark, caf, decaf, low-fat, non-fat, etc. So people who don't know what the hell they're doing or who on earth they are can, for only $2.95, get not just a cup of coffee but an absolutely defining sense of self: Tall. Decaf. Cappuccino" -You've Got Mail
No matter how pessimistic I get, or how much I complain. I always know everything is going to be ok. The sun will rise. Cicadas will drive people crazy. And I'll keep breathing.
As long as there are things and people I love around me I'm happy :)
- Top hats - Obscene fish - those clicky highlighters - Racist cupcakes w/ bushy green hair - Alphabet trees - New Friends - Old Friends - Hearts in the floor boards - STICKERS - Wheeleys - Finding money - Opera ;P - Taking over people's kitchens and baking them cookies. - BENT scissors
I swear I would have started yelling if you kept on like that. ( actually, i did ) I hate how you'll sit in the car with dad and discuss my future. It's not yours. It's mine! I can't even be a part of the conversation. If I say anything, I get yelled at for 'interrupting'. The more you push things at me and try to force me into doing 'What's Best for Me' the more I completely disregard what you say. I wish you would just shut-up and listen to me. Hearing you tell me to do something like I have no choice makes me NOT want to do it, just so I can exercise what little freedom I have. Maybe I'm a prideful person, but I would do that. I would throw everything away so I can prove that you can't control me. Because that's what it is with you. Control. That's why you freak out at everything. That's why your afraid when people walk by the car and you lock the door. That's why you micro-manage everything and EVERYONE! You're so afraid of the unknown you can't even function. And it makes you so high strung that you go mental on people and beat them with SPOONS!
Besides all this junk, I'm actually ok. I'm happy with myself, which says alot. I LOVE MY FRIENDS.
I can always tell who's walking through the house by the sound of their foot falls. My dad's long, carefully placed strides. Tanner's skipping walk. My mom's quick steps, magnified by the sound of her clapping sandals. Why do we tend to define people by what they do instead of who they are? I've always been known as the girl who smiles all the time and bakes people cookies and is nice. But what if I wasn't like that anymore? Who would I be? Honestly, I don't know who I am. I've just been doing what I've always done because that's what people expect from me.
God. I'm so glad I finally said something. I've been feeling like crap about the whole thing and it was really getting to me...*Enough Said*
Spring break has been ok. The cool weather was nice but I hate being trapped inside when it's hot D:and now I have super calf muscles from riding my horsie so much. Woo-hoo. I'M GOING TO JOCELYN'S :D
I forgot how it all happened, but I was in the kitchen with my mom and she was like "You need to learn how to control your emotions" <--I must have given her a really weird face or something at this because then she was like "Why are you looking at me like that? You always look like you're hiding something"(I believe I gave her another weird face.)and then--> "Ya, Don't think I havn't got you all figured out"
It was all very weird.
something I wrote:
We try, We try With all our might to grasp this concept Of light
But still we sink under Daring ourselves to take a breath Crying Out but there's nothing left.
I don't know what's up with me. I'm just kind of floating in and out of my mind. Being alone at home does that to you. Or at least to me. There are at least 4 other people in this house, but right now there could be no life on the planet it's so quiet... All I can hear is the sound of my obnoxiously loud computer.
I read a book called "Second Helpings" and I feel thoroughly slammed in a way that only extremely awesome genius type people can make you feel. WHOO! But anyway, it made me laugh. and I will NEVER again use the word like in the middle of a sentence!
(for the admirers of my little brother) TANNER GOT CONTACTS! But I think he's more adorable with his glasses.
My brother sprayed AXE everywhere and it STINKS! Not really. but i feel like I'm losing oxygen to my brain.
I need something else to read, but sadly my family lacks taste in books. Unless of course, I would wish to read "SAVE MONEY NOW" or perhaps "THE TEN ROADS TO RICHES". ehhh. My mom is crazy about that stuff. By the time I was 8 I mastered the game of CASHFLOW.
Ahwell, at least I'm going to Grace's on Monday :D YAY!
Last night, I was taking a walk when all of the sudden I hear this LOUD GRUNTING NOISE. And I look over at the orange grove next to me and there's these giant black THINGS. AT first, I freaked out because I thought they were coyotes, but then I realized it was a bunch of wild boar(equally vicious but not as scary) and they had all these little black spotted baby piggies. They didn't seem to notice me, so, I just stood there for a second watching them and it made me wonder how many people never get to see something like this. I might be a "country girl" and have never purchased one thing from the Starbucks menu, but I get to see the world differently. :)
Have you ever had the feeling that everything was off?.. like someone changed the orbit a couple degrees and any second now we should be roasting alive, but we're not and everything is ok, more than ok, it's perfect and you have no idea why everything is suddenly falling in place, but even though you're shocked by this, you can't help but be completely content? ya, that's how i've been feeling lately (as in today) <---CRAZY STUFF.
I've started to drink a lot of water and my hands are always warm now:)
BTW, this is a picture of my dirt cake for Biology :D